IMPERFECT ME 17

EPISODE 17

Michael dumped the napkin in his hand in anger, he manages to ruin things just when there is an opportunity, he needed or wanted her to rest but that line keeps popping up and it makes it seem as if he does not care about her but he realized he really cared, more than he was ready to admit and more than she would believe.
He took the tray of food to her room, she just said thank you and turned her face away, she was obviously crying but he did not think she will want him to console her, so he left the room and the food he ate tasted like gravel in his mouth but he forced himself so he would not wake up in the middle of the night hungry.
This madness has got to stop. He resolved in his mind and he fell into a fitful sleep.

Rachael watched her husband congratulate his colleagues after they had been ordained on Sunday, he graduated from the school of ministry as one of the students but then that was not the intention, he wanted to serve in the capacity of an ordained minister but one night’s foolishness ruined it. He was a master at hiding his feelings but she could see through him and know he was sad but he really was handling it better than she imagined.
God does not need us piling up titles and not walk in the fullness of what we are called. Lord you know how much he loves and want to serve you, I know it’s just a phase but it’s tough, too much than we can bite. Please let everything be alright again.
They had maintained a meditative silence as they drove home. He was lost in thought and so was she, she wish she had the right words to say but nothing feels right.
“Michael I am sorry about today, I wish things happened diff…Please don’t, I am fine okay?  Don’t start claiming to be the cause of today’s event, we can’t change what happened and I really hate to think about it so please let’s forget about it and move forward, that’s the only way I can stay sane.” He said with a deep frown on his face.
“Okay, I was not sure how you were feeling but I am glad you are handling it well.”
“Rachael, don’t bother about me, I am okay and I have been taking care of myself for a long while now so please worry not.” He said.
She was not sure how to respond to that statement. She shifted in her seat, the seat belt was making her uncomfortable, her hand kept adjusting and readjusting it.
“I noticed Leah has not been coming to church well and the last time I saw her she looked really lean, I keep feeling bad about her, contrary to what you think, I worry a lot about you and I can’t help thinking Leah would have made you happy since you seem not to like whatever it is I do,” She said with no regrets.
“Rachael please can we just go home in peace, I am tired and I need to think.”
“Tired people rest not think.” She countered.
“Well I need to do both and please don’t talk to me about Leah being a better option. You are my wife period.” He said with gritted teeth. He did not want to shout at her but she was getting on his nerves by asking and saying things he really could not change or do anything about. He was going to do his best to move forward and stop dwelling on the past.
Rachael turned her face away as tears threatened to fall. She did not know when she became a wimp but she cried over silly things even when she does her best to be strong.
“Hey come on, I am sorry, I did not mean to demean your feelings but I really am tired of thinking and dwelling in the past. God has forgiven me and I want to progress” He said hoping that will ease the tension between them.
“Okay.”
“Okay? Is that all you have to say?” He asked.
She turned to face him. "I really don’t have anything else to say. I understand you and I think you are right. We should think of how to move forward.” She said just so they drop the talk.
Rachael winced and groaned as she swallowed the pain that hit her. They got home and gathered her energy, he opened the door, packed his things from the car and started to go in as usual when he realized she was not coming out.
“Why are you not coming out?” He asked looking back and retraced his steps back to the car when he saw her squeezing her face in pain.
“Jesus! Rachael, are you okay?” He asked dropping the things in his hand.
“What do you need me to do?” He asked as sweat beads formed on his brows.
“Nothing, I …I just, ah…my stomach.” She said holding her belle.
“Rachael you are getting me scared now.”
“Hmm!!! Please just help me get into the house.”  She said gripping his hand for support.
“I think we should go to the hospital first.”
“Doctors are on strike.” She managed to say.
“Should I call your mum?” He asked.
“Michael get me inside first.” She said firmly.
“Okay, sure.” He wanted to carry her but she insisted that she would walk, she did not want to give neighbours any new gossip about her.
Rachael feared something was not right, was pregnancy that difficult, the last scan showed that all was well but then all does not seem well lately  but she did not want to get him worried with all that he has going on. She was glad he seem to be genuinely concerned about her but then he must also be doing it just for his baby and that sunk her heart the more. She needed to be loved and to know she is not alone on this but theirs was not like every other couple, the circumstances surrounding their marriage were not normal and so there will be a lot more effort to make things right.
She had been trying to act right but when someone is pregnant, sometimes you just feel like being naughty and for her she has no one to be naughty with not when she was trying to get on his good page and it appears she was achieving her aim.
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Leah made a trip home after so long, she decided home was better anyway, she felt she needed to cool off. Seeing Michael and Rachael acting the lovy dovy couple made her start regretting why she gave up so easily, that should have been her but on the contrary, Rachael had what she could never give him. She dreaded meeting Kunle, though she knew he was as miserable as she was. She asked her mum to keep her coming quiet because she did not plan to stay for long.
The journey felt much tiring, she did not think she could be so tired but she really was.
“My daughter is back o.” Her mum screamed as she entered the house.
“Mummy!!!” She said pleased to see her mum who worries so much about her, she felt sad because she was not the precious girl that used to make them happy, she was just chaff now and she did not know where and how her life was going now.
“Mummy I missed you so much.” She cried as she hugged her fiercely with all the strength she had.
It was a sweet re-union but she knew the sweetness would not last when they start to discuss, she needed to reduce the load on her shoulders.
“Do you know that Kunle disappointed me?” Her mum started as she tried to settle in.
“what did he do again, mummy I have told you to forget about him, I don’t like the way he keeps bugging you about me again and…this is not about you my dear.” Her mum said impatiently.
“Then what business do I have with it.” She asked.
“Well, he got a girl pregnant.”
“WH-WHAT!!!”
“Yes o. He got her pregnant, you know Surat in the choir, the one staying with em…Yes, I know her. You mean Kunle brought himself so low to get a house help pregnant, that girl has not even finished her secondary school.” She said in horror.
“I was equally shocked; I did not expect that a vibrant brother like him would commit fornication. May the Lord have mercy on his church, the end time is really here. The church has suspended him and well the girl is still young and her guardians have returned her to her parents, that girl had become so rude and very naughty, we all thought that her aunty was being too harsh until she said Kunle gave her money to abort and the girl was afraid and so she mentioned it to her friend who told her guardian and that was how the secret leaked, after much beatings.” He mum explained elaborately.
“Hey! Jesus save me.” She said putting both hands on her head.
“My dear, your father has warned him to stay away, the fact that your wedding could not work the first time does not mean you are done for, I believe any man that knows your worth will find you and stay.” Her mum said wiping away tears as she spoke.
“No mummy, that man will be really unlucky.” She cried.
“No my child, I always brag about how faithful and good you are, we need serious and devoted ladies like you to help build younger youths. You have kept yourself and did not do what the children of the world find pleasure in and you…Mummy please stop!!!” She said blocking her ears.
“Leah what is it?”
“Mum I think I need to sleep. I feel sick.” She said lying on the chair.
“Enter the bedroom and sleep now, I am sorry I did not allow you to rest, we will discuss it later.”
“Yes ma, later… like never.” She completed in her mind though she knew that was not possible.
Her head was aching badly as she wondered how many ladies had suffered in his hand, he must be possessed and well she wish he rots in hell.
“Leah Kunle asks to see you, I didn’t mean to disturb your sleep but he has refused to leave and… Kunle is here?” She asked shaken.
Leah was glad her mother had the sense to excuse them.
“Leah! Oh my God I have missed you.” He said confidently knowing they were alone, he stood up and walked towards her but what he got was not expected. She gave him a resounding slap on his cheek.
“Jesus!” His hand went to his face and when he tried to talk she gave him another slap.
“Kunle, my God will punish you. How long do you think you will last, how many girls have you used so far huh!”
“Leah was that why you slapped me?” He asked foolishly.
“You are mad for asking such dumb question, you deserve to die, the world does not need your kind in it. You go about ruining innocent lives and you think you will have peace huh?” She asked as hot tears ran down her cheeks not because she was a victim too but because she had fallen so deep and had carried the burden for so long. She had premeditated the slaps she gave him, he deserves more but she felt the slaps will serve a bit and hope someone else does the killing.
“Leah it’s not that those girls were innocent, you needed to see how indecently they dress to church and… Jesus Kunle, you need deliverance.” She said hitting him with a pillow.
“You were meant to correct them not take advantage of them, you teach the word of God but I see no evidence in you and… Well that makes both of us.” He answered harshly.
“What do you mean by that?” Her mother asked when she could not hide herself behind the curtain eavesdropping on them.
“ Mummy, nothing, he was on his way self.” Leah stammered and tried to hide her face but the horror of her mother's face showed that the woman had caught on with their gist. Yes she was soiled, she had been used, ducked and dumped and she was empty and it's all because she was too afraid to disappoint her parents, they trusted her too much now she wondered where she will hide her face.

LESSON
Does who live in glass houses down not throw stones: Parents don't be quick to cast people's children, yours might be lost under your very nose.

Never make excuses for your weaknesses, admit it, repent and move on.

Radiant Pheobe © 2017

IMPERFECT ME 16

EPISODE 16

Michael was in no hurry to go home from work. He was not in the mood for any of her talks, he just wanted his peace and quiet but he was not sure if such things exist anymore.
“Boss are you not going home, the security want to lock the facility?” A junior colleague asked.
“Oh really, I was actually getting set to leave too. It’s been a long day.” He said getting up pretending he has been working all day.
He bade his colleague good night and well only that it was not night it was just about few minutes to seven, he drove lazily taking his time hoping to pass time on the way home. He saw some fruit sellers and decided to stop by to buy some, peradventure his wife decides she was too tired to cook. Well he was trying not to be judgmental but they have had a very rough start which he had no idea on how to fix it, she was making life difficult for him and it’s just too early to start reporting cases to anybody.
He used his key to open the door and the aroma in the house were assaulting his senses. He came in gently and he did not see her around. He walked toward his room through the dinning and saw the table set. He started to suspect that there was a foul play. If things were not different, he knew the old Rachael was capable of this but not the new person he has come to know, whatever it is that has happened must be questioned.
“Hey you are back. I was beginning to get worried about your not being home since, I thought something had happened.” She said and collected his bag and suit. He was too stunned to say anything.
“You should go and shower first, you must be very tired and then come back and eat your food.” She said walking towards his room when he found his voice.
“Em…Rachael thank you, I think I can take it from here. Thanks for the food too. You must have out done yourself, please go and rest now I can handle the rest.”
“But I was just trying to…”
“Sure and I said thank you didn’t I? You should go now okay?” He said and left her confused.
“Did I say or do anything wrong?” She asked silently and walked to her room sad. Michael had to turn to be sure it was her, he felt bad for talking to her that way but he did not trust that her being nice will last. He was just trying to be careful.  
“He’s just surprised that’s why, I will not give up now.” She said dabbing the tears from her eyes.
She did not know how much reconciling with him meant to her until that time, she missed her friend, the fact that you have someone that understands or even when he does not understand is always available to listen. She had done as her mum advised, she looked back and tried to remember the good days when all was still well. It felt like a million years back but the more she remembered the more she knew she was missing, where was that Michael, they were not the same people they used to be back then that is why they need to be on a page but how does she go about that when he is now acting up.
“I will make this work.” She said with determination that gave her fresh energy, she was looking forward to the morning already though they were yet to sleep.

Michael woke up with a throbbing head, he had a fitful sleep fighting with himself, a part of him wanted to believe Rachael and the egoistic part of him believed otherwise. He got up lazily and she was at it again. He thanked God he had not rejected the dinner she prepared last night. He even suspected if she put love portion in it but well, turns out she is a good cook that’s all.
The aroma of fried eggs filled his room, his stomach growled and he had no intention of eating her food this morning, if he keeps eating her food, that will be taking them to the next level and he was not sure he could handle what the next level will be- whatever that next level is was not his business to know now.
He observed his devotion, trying to shut out his sense of smell and concentrate but it turns out that he will need to shut his ears too. There is no way you are falling for that again Michael. He thought. He had almost forgotten she sings that good, well that’s because all she’s done was to nag and misunderstand him but Rachael is something, Really and she does not know it.
He read through the devotional all the while his ears kept straining to hear her voice, she must be having a busy morning. This was what he used to imagine a marriage with her to be not what’s obtainable now but where your home feels like heaven on earth. God why can’t I have that huh? Everything didn’t start right, nothing is as they should be. Lord you’ve got to help me. You really need to help me. He prayed and dragged himself to take a quick shower.
“Good…good morning de…sir, hope you had a good night sleep.” Rachael asked as she saw him.
“What?!”
“I said hope your night was great?” She asked as if it’s a normal thing for her to do every morning. He looked at her again and she wiped sweat from her forehead. He felt like beating himself.
“Have they not told you that pregnant women should not be doing hard work? You should be careful, you are carrying my child and I can’t afford for anything to go wrong.” He queried. Rachael opened her mouth to answer as usual but he was shocked that she sucked back the words, drew a long breath and nodded. She sniffed and dabbed her eyes with her fingers and still managed to smile.
“Breakfast is ready and I …thanks but I am not eating.” He quickly said and the look in her eyes was that of hurt and disappointment.
“I…I am fasting.” He said to redeem himself but of course she knew him better than to belief that lie.
“Okay then, I will pack it in a warmer for you to eat as lunch.”
“I said I am fasting.” He repeated.
“I know but please don’t say no, I…I (she swallowed hard before she continued, she did not want him assuming she was looking for his sympathy). Please Michael, I put in so much effort to make you breakfast, I can’t eat it all at home, I don’t care what you do with it, please just go with it.” She begged and went to the kitchen without waiting to hear his reply.
“Thanks.” He said as he collected the food. He was too shocked at her behavior and he started to feel like a brute for making light of her efforts. Lord I am sorry I lied about the fasting thing, Rachael is not making this stubbornness work but what if I give in and end up in trouble like the first time huh? He thought as he drove to the office.

They had fallen into a routine as the weeks turned into months, she was getting heavier by the day and she was too ashamed to be going out and is starting to have great difficulties walking.
Michael had resolved to be civil with her, he was her husband and wives are supposed to take care of their husbands, the fact that she cooks his meal does not mean anything great, it’s part of what he was forced to pay for. At least that was his way of dulling the ache he feels whenever he refuses to reciprocate her actions.
He was particularly depressed because the ordination that was meant to be with him inclusive will happen but he was very out. Though he was almost forgetting why they ended up together instead of Leah, but this was a reminder of the fact that as part of the church’s way of disciplining him, he would have to step back and put his life together. You can’t lead God’s people when you are in a total mess, that was not to say you have to be perfect but some things needs to be handled with sense. He was asked to put his house together and it’s been months now and all he sees is management, maybe when the child is born, he would finally get  a companion, some days are better than some, when she is not cranky and depressed, she is overly nice and suspicious. The fact that they sleep in separate rooms is eating him up but how do you tell a woman who you have convinced you don’t care about that you want her in your bed. He did not know how long it’s going to take but then he needed help and he does not know who to confide in.

Rachael was curled up in the chair writhing in pains, she had read stuff about false labor and this did not seem false only that she was just six months gone, that will make it a bit too early for delivery. She groaned and was too tired to do any work let alone cook. The pains has been there but it got severe today. She did not want her parents worried and she really had no friends. It was awkward discussing with Esther who was still believing God for a baby.
She massaged her stomach repeatedly hoping that will ease the pain but it only got worse.
“Oh God! Help me.” She cried and well she heard the door open, she felt like crying for joy though she knew he will think that was an attempt to get him to hold her, she did not care what he interpreted this one to be but she just needed to get to her room and have a long sleep if it will come.
Michael came home hungry and he assumed he will perceive sweet smells as usual but not today, instead he heard deep sighs and his heart did a complete summersault. He thought she was in labor but it hit him that it was not time. That calmed him down a bit.
“Rachael what’s wrong with you.” He asked trying to be cool, he did not want to start panicking and realize it’s one of her pranks, she had played a few with him and he always fell for it thinking it was real but it appears that she magnified little things to get his attention.
“My stomach…” She cried, he took few steps towards her and saw that she was sweating and wincing, she really was in pains.
“Rachael are you okay?” Now he was scared. He went to her and tried to help her sit up but that caused her to scream out in pains, she gripped his shirt as she allowed the pain to pass.
“Jesus Rachael, what’s going on now, should I take you to the hospital?” He asked trying to get her in a comfortable position.
“No! take me to my room.” She said with gritted teeth.
“Are you sure, should I call your mum or something.”
“No, I will be fine.” She said still holding on to his shirt.
All he could do was sit and wait, he felt helpless watching her in pains, he did not want to feel what he was feeling, he started to pity her and wanted to just take all the pain away. He struggled against the urge to just pull her in for a long comforting embrace, that is what husbands do right? But he allowed himself to be used as a wall for support not as a human with emotions.
“Hmm! Jesus!!!” She said under her breath.
He scooped her in his arms and took her to her room though she was trying to resist when another cramp hit her, she was too occupied with pain to know if it was him or just anything moving her to the room.
He laid her carefully on the bed, he knew what he should do is to lay his hand and command the pain to cease but he felt powerless, he did not have the confidence and to see what she was going through caused him pain but he was finding it difficult to express himself to her.
Lord I don’t feel worthy but I know it’s not about how I feel but what you’ve done. Please can you take this pain away so she can rest? He prayed under his breath with his eyes closed. He laid his hand on the side of the stomach, she had no idea what he was doing but after some minutes, he heard her breathing evenly, her stomach was rising and falling like heartbeat, he did not know what he was missing, he wish he had the opportunity to feel that stomach as he wish but this time will be cherished. He shifted his weight carefully from the bed and left to go fix himself something to eat, he was not sure if she had eaten. It was just few minutes to eight and so she might need to eat something.
When did you start caring about if she has eaten or not? A voice in his head teased him.
“I will do that for anyone, she is in pains and needs to be cared for.” He said making up an excuse.
You love her right?
“Love, does that thing exist? Well I …Michael why are you talking to yourself now huh!” He chided himself and shut out the voice in his head got busy.
He was just cleaning up when he heard footsteps behind him. He turned and faced the worried looking woman. She really has changed, she was chubbier and her nose, that was the funny part to him, her nose stood out dignified, he knew she might not like it but he thinks it’s cute.
“I am so sorry I could not cook you dinner, I really wanted to but…Rachael you are not my house help, you are my wife,” He said and allowed that to sink. They may not be acting it but that is the way it is.
“ I understand perfectly and I don’t want you standing up not after that scene, you really scared me, if this happens again which I pray does not, I will take you to the hospital. You acted like you were in labor or worse, I was confused and… I am sorry I scared you, I feel fine now. I did not know when I fell asleep.” She said cutting him shut.
“I still insist you go and lie down, you know you are carrying ….my baby” She completed for him and turned to leave.
“Rachael it’s not what you think, I only wanted you to…It’s fine, I am fine.” She said and walked back to her room wondering how in God's name they can get passed this stage.

LESSON
Charity begins at home,  if you want to lead outside, be that type of leader inside.
The heart has a mind of its own and is a natural lover. Let love lead.
Watch what you say and how you say it.

P. S.  Sorry for the delay in posting,  it was due to some unavoidable logistics. I hope to keep up the pace, that's why it's a bit longer today. Thanks for your cooperation.

Radiant Pheobe © 2017

IMPERFECT ME 15

EPISODE 15

Rachael hit the bed with serious back ache, she did not expect that people would still want to come and visit but the Sunday was not as quiet as she wanted. She helped herself with some fruits in the fridge and decided to microwave the food her mum had sent, she did not know there was food until he opened the back door and brought out the warmer. She rendered a silent prayer of thanks to God for that. Just when she entered her room, after a cold shower. She was just climbing the bed when she heard laughter from the living room. She refused to go out but of course he called her out and pretending not to hear would be an obvious lie. And that was how, she was on her feet serving and pretending to be happy while he laughed and talked with the guests, he was the perfect host, he even covered up for her saying his pretty wife was tired.
At 8:30pm they saw the last set off and she dragged herself inside the room and fell on the bed with a loud thud.
“You really should not be doing that.” Michael said standing by the door, leaning back on the door frame.
“What?” She said raising her head to look at him.
“I said you should not be jumping on the bed like that, you are carrying my baby okay?”
“Michael please just let me be okay, I don’t have energy to shout tonight.” She said dragging her weak self into a sitting position and she winced at the pain in her back and her legs.
“Of course you don’t have energy.” He said with sarcasm and turned to go.
“Michael…”
“Yes!” He turned.
“Please can you help me … I … my back aches and I was wondering if you would not mind massaging it for….I mind.” He said and banged the door. The sound made her jitter. She swallowed hard as tears rolled down her eyes. She had the strongest urge to call her mum  but she did not want to disturb the poor woman tonight.
She knew it was going to be a long night and she hope to God that sleep departs from him as it definitely might not favor her also.
She woke up past 7am only to come out and find him all dressed up for work.
“I did not want to wake you up. I left some money on the dining table in case you need anything. Have a nice day.” He picked his car key and walked out of the door before she could say anything.
He sure is a handsome man but well he will not be getting any compliments from her. Meanwhile she needed to speak to her mum before she loses her mind.
She was already dosing off on the three sitter when her phone buzzed. It was her mum knocking on the door and when she got no response she decided to call.
“Mummy  I am sorry, I didn’t know when I slept off.” She said opening the door and giving her mum a bear hug.
“Mummy I miss you so much, please let me follow you back home please, I can’t survive one more day with that brute.” She said but her mum gently disengaged her from the hug when she called him a brute.
“Rachael what has come over you huh! Did I just hear you call your husband a brute?”
“But mummy Michael is so mean and inconsiderate, all he cares about is the baby, I don’t count to him, he hates me and so do I.” She said leading her in.
“Haa Jesus Christ save me. This girl will not put me to shame.”
“Rachael I see how much he tries to make you comfortable but you have always been mean to him too. I know this is not what any of you bargained for but you are in it now okay and it’s till death does you part and none of you will die in Jesus name.” Her mum said.
“Mummy, it’s been so hard. I get so angry for nothing, yes he tries but it feels like forever and we are not even a week old. I feel so mad at myself, him, even God, yes I know that’s being unreasonable but mummy I thought they said God forgives sins huh! I see other people in our shoes but they seem to be doing fine.” She complained.
“Rachael, people will only show what they want you to see and you should count your blessings and not talk like foolish women. You got better training than this.”
“Mummy nothing feels right, I feel God is far and does not care anymore. I feel so lonely and confused. I am tired of the fight, I want to be happy again.” She cried and her mum comforted her.
“I know how much I prayed for you to end up with a good man and God answers prayer, though it does not look like it now but Rachael, a wise woman builds her home but a foolish woman tears it down with her own hand.”
“Mummy, I don’t think there is any remedy for this marriage.” She said shifting her weight in the chair.
“There is always a remedy. Both of you are just being stubborn but then one has to step down for the other, when everybody is talking, no one is communicating. Rachael the bible said wives submit to your husbands, the bible did not say submit if the husband is acting right or wrong, why not give it a try, don’t just throw words back in his face, you will not go far that way.” Her mum warned.
“But mum, you and dad have a perfect marriage, he treats you well, loves and cares for you and everyone is happy. Michael is just so annoying and inconsiderate.”
“Hahaha! Baby no marriage is perfect, I and your father have had our fair share of troubles, I only wish I learnt fast enough, you are lucky you have a mother who knows a lot, I learnt the hard way and I don’t want that for you.” Her mum said worried.
“Mum would I not look awkward trying to act nice, would he not think me strange? I can’t let him take me for a fool.”
“Well you are not ready for peace and trust me, it will be bad to keep having to shout and worry in this condition. You should rest more, I don’t want your blood pressure rising, you are too young for that and you should start your antenatal, that’s part of the reason I came. The one you registered near the house might be too far, we would fix a date and go to the hospital outside your estate, I heard their services are good too.”
“Yes mummy but I don’t feel like I can face those accusing eyes, I just got married and people who did not know will now know why I married.” She said pouting.
“Well they should talk all they can, I care about your health and that of the child. That’s what you should worry about.” Her mum said annoyed.
“Okay mum, I hear you, I think I need emotional healing first.” She said.
“What you need is God and some sense  to be a virtuous woman. Baby I know deep down in your heart is the love you had for him, we will pray now and God will help you love your husband. Do the right thing irrespective of what he does, don’t reply back when he is spiting you, tell him you are sorry, you could kneel down and apologize so he can…”
“No!!! mum that will be pushing it, i can’t kneel down now when he obviously won’t be helping me get up from the ground. My back aches too often lately.” She complained.
“Okay I hear you but you can’t continue this way. You have to make the first move even if he does not. A woman has to do what she can to make her house a home. We will pray and ask God for mercy and his grace. You sure need plenty doses of his grace.
“Yes mummy I really do, if God does not intervene I don’t know who else can.” She said making a resolution in her heart to start working on the change. She needed the marriage to work if not for anything, she would not want her unborn children come into such a mess called family, she wanted things like they should be and she would achieve it by God’s grace. But what if he is not willing to change?  Will she continue like a fool?

LESSON
People will only show you what they want you to see therefore,never compare yourself with anybody.

Radiant Pheobe © 2017

IMPERFECT ME 14

EPISODE 14
March 17.
1:07am.
Rachael stared blankly at the wall clock as it clicked. She could not belief she was sleeping in a separate room cuddling a pillow on her wedding night. She knew Michael thought he was doing her a favor by listening to her plea for wanting to be alone, he had made arrangement and alterations in the room that she could not fault. He knew what she likes and he really has gone out of the way to make her comfortable.
She turned from side to side wondering if this is all they will be, flat mates. She did not know if he was just trying to hide his grieve but he looked like he was enjoying himself, it was pure torture for her though, him acting all loving and sweet, smiling at her and fondling with her hand as if they were normal couples. He even stole a kiss or two and people felt it was cute but it was really embarrassing.
Despite what she thought, what was supposed to be a small in house wedding was graced by many and she did get gifts too. Her mum wept a lot as it became time to go and so did she. It was her dad that insisted that Michael takes her home so the mum would stop. They were in the same town but it felt like she was leaving to a place so far from home.
Michael had comforted her on their way home, being in his arms did not feel so gross, actually she never wanted the ride home to end and to confirm it, immediately Luke who served as their driver left, he ushered her into her room saying she can change her clothes and rest. She wanted to call him back but her ego would not let her do that.
She did not know why she was feeling lonely, she did not feel like sleeping, she wanted to be held like a bride, she wanted to be cuddled and petted, she wanted to feel the warmth and security a husband can give but of course she was not going to get any of that. She scattered her hair thinking of what to do to distract her raging mind, she wondered if it was just her finding it difficult to sleep or maybe he was having a sound sleep after a long day. Marriage, nobody should marry for the wrong reasons, not even this is a strong enough reason but they had a reputation to protect, their families, the church and the fact that more than half of the people thought it was not a mistake but a preplanned act to end up married since they have been quite close. Well she did not care about what they thought but she knew this was going to be a very boring marriage.
Michael dashed into her room and went to her, her hands on her head and she panted heavily.
“Rachael are you okay?” He shook her shoulders pulling her in for an embrace. He patted her back softly and suddenly she pushed him and he almost lost his balance.
“What are you trying to do to me, why are you in my room?” She said shifting to the other end of the room where he can’t reach her.
Michael looked at her like a moron, he was dump folded. He rubbed his face and place his other hand at akimbo as he thought of the best reply to give her.
“Rachael I would not be here if you did not scream, for Christ sake what do you think the neighbors will think? They will think I have started to maltreat my wife on our wedding night. I ran over and comforted you and this is all I get huh!” He paced trying to calm himself.
Rachael’s attention was drawn to his bare chest, Michael must have taken to gyming because he was really well built and those arms had comforted her a while ago but she did not know she screamed out, she was screaming in her mind and so she felt startled to realized he was holding her for real looking gorgeous in his briefs.
Michael was confused, he was mad at her and all she did was gawk at him like he was a piece of art.
“Look all you want okay, it’s yours now but guess what, you will have to beg me before I dare hold you again, I can’t stand another outright rejection from you. When we have guests please play along and when they are gone, you should know the way to your room.” He said and turned away.
“Michael come back here.” She commanded but he was gone.
“Rachael when did you become so stupid huh!” She said hitting her head and pulling the sheets angrily.
She tried to sleep and after a while she was exhausted and drifted off to sleep only for him to come and knock on her door.
“Woman wake up, we will be late for church.” He knocked but when she did not answer, he was forced to open the door.
She was curled up with a pillow, he went and took a close look at her, if she was gawking at him, it would not be a crime to look too after all they were married. He felt jealous of the pillow, how could she be holding a pillow when he was readily available. Wedding night indeed. He did not like the fact that he would have to wake her up, he knew she slept late but so did he, well she is pregnant, that’s why she is in his house in the first place.
“Rachael wake up.” He said tapping her, she groaned and refused to answer.
“I said wake up now.”
“Mummy please give me five minute.” She said and continued her sleep.
“Why do I think this is an invitation from you to have me carry you out of bed into the bathroom for a couple bath, I guess that will be romantic right?” He asked with sarcasm in his voice.
“Couple bath? What!” Rachael sat up and pulled the covers to her chest.
“Oh! So you are awake. You have less than thirty minutes to get ready for church, we should not start going late now should we?” He asked pinning his eyes on her.
“Fine, can you please excuse me, I will need my privacy to get ready.”  She stuttered.
“Oh really, privacy huh! I wonder when married couple starts having privacy. Is this even a marriage, sure they say it is. Well I will surely want to have a feel of my baby, the baby I had to pay dearly for.” He said smirking his lips and walking towards her.
“What! Where are you going to? You said you won’t touch me remember, you promised and there is church to think about, I need to get ready if you can just excuse me please?” She begged not because she did not want him but because she did not trust herself. She knew Michael did not love her like he used to and whatever happens between them will just be mere release of hormonal excesses, she wanted love not just sex but everything is still messed up, she hope it does not come to a point where he will want to force her, she was not psychologically ready, she would not allow anything to break her resolve. His simple touch has that effect on her so she will not let him.
“Rachael I will see how long it will take you to keep rejecting me to my face, I thought Leah was a wrong choice but you are not any better. Now you have about thirty minutes, remember we are supposed to appear in uniform like normal couples a day after their wedding.  I believe you know what to wear as planned.” He said and walked away leaving her dumb folded.
Rachael wish there was a way to escape immediately after the service but there really was no way out with people crowding her and giving their congratulations. Well some were just curious and she will not give anybody to pleasure of laughing at her, she was about to make her way out when Elder Mofe’s wife cornered her.
“Iyawo titun, how are you my dear, sure your wedding night was awesome, you must be very tired because your eyes are puffy but see how your husband is looking bright ehn, it’s the men’s world, they get to enjoy while the women suffer the pain, it will be fine soon okay? I wonder why my daughter in-law is yet to conceive ehn…I…”
“Hey baby, I have been looking all over for you. Good afternoon mummy, I need to have a word with my wife if you don’t mind.” Michael said whisking his wife away, waving other church members and taking her straight to the car.
Rachael allowed him because she would have passed out if she stood there an extra minute. That woman was a busy body, how could she ever talk about Esther that way, her friend must be going through hell. It’s unfortunate that they can’t swap places.
“Are you okay? You looked like you needed some air and well I know how that woman can be so I came to save you, hope I won’t be criticized for doing that?” He said putting on his seat belt on though his eyes were on her.
“Hmm! Thanks for coming to save me just like you used to.”
“Finally I get a compliment, I think we are getting somewhere.” He said.
“Hey! What do you mean, I am not that…well you just keep getting under my skin and making sarcastic comments and you expect me to just sit back and watch?”
“Are we having an argument again?” He asked.
“No we are just talking, I am really hungry can we just go to your house?” She said knowing that might spark another reaction.
“Why can’t you make it super simple and ask if we can just go home? It’s your house too you know?” 
“Okay, Whatever?” She said turning outside as he put on the ignition.
“Sure that’s what I get for being nice. Well if this is how you want it, let’s do it.” He said and pressed the clutch angrily raising dust.
“Michael are you mad? What if I had hit my head on the dash board.” She asked breathing heavily.
“Oh! Sure I am very mad, well I’d rather you hit your head than your stomach, nothing must happen to that baby since that’s the reason my life is in a mess now.”  He said not looking her way. She was too shocked to utter a word.
“So you care about the baby not me, do you think you are the only one that has lost huh?”
“Well what do I do when you make it so difficult to be cared for, so let me care about the baby. I just hope to God he is a boy.” He said with no apologies.
“Michael I hate you.”
“News flash, so do I?” He said and it hit her like an arrow. She did not really mean it, it was just the normal I hate you kind of talk but then the look in his eyes tells her he really meant the hatred thing, tears blurred her view, she swallowed the lump in her throat and gritted her teeth. Her eyes had the mind of their own, though she did not want to look weak, the tears rolled and she quickly dabbed her eyes with her handkerchief while she sniffed. She said nothing more, she was just wondering what will happen from now on. It’s just Day two and already, it feels like hell.

LESSON
Don’t marry for the wrong reasons.
In a relationship, one person has to step down for the other, there can’t be two captains in a ship.

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IMPERFECT ME 13

EPISODE 13

Rachael could not believe this was really happening to her, all her plans to have a grand white wedding went down the drain, they were just going to come pay her bride price, have the pastor pray over them, entertain the few people and hold a small reception for those that cared to come and then she will be Mrs. Michael Tade. What a shame.

It was obvious she was the only one still seeing how insane the whole thing is, Esther had been lovely, she was gracefully married now but Esther felt responsible for what happened seeing that she insisted she stayed back to help and so did Luke, so they stood by them even when others were being judgmental.
She knew who her real friends were, it appeared that a lot of people related with her when the spotlight was on her. Now she was just part of the statistics.

Michael had just been cool, acting as if he has everything under control but she knew he was hurting as much as she was. His mum who was not a stranger to her at least when she was his friend had started calling more frequently, calling her my wife, my daughter, asking after the baby. She felt frustrated but she could not vent the anger on the poor woman.
“Rachael come out of that room now, you have to come and eat and your father said you should not let him come and get you himself.” Her mum said on top of her voice.
“Mum you didn’t need to shout, I am not hungry yet.” She answered. She locked the door on herself, she felt really depressed and wanted to be left alone but obviously not. It appears that her parent seem to be looking forward to having the baby, she could not blame them for it. They know what they went through to have her and they did not mind the shame of having a child from her in such a disgraceful manner.
“Rachael open the door this minute and come and eat. If you don’t care about yourself, at least think about my baby, he needs to be healthy.” Michael’s voice called out.
“What! Why are you in my house and how dare you call my baby yours and who told you she is a he?” She answered.
“Rachael we are not having a couple fight are we?” He asked and she yanked the door open which was what he expected. What he did not expect was how messed up she looked, swollen eyes which was still red from crying, disheveled hair and all this with her in a pajamas.
“Michael, you sure know what to do to get her to open the door. You guys fit each other.” Her mum said pulling her along like you would a five year old.
“Michael how dare you… you should start respecting him now, he will be your husband in less than a week. I don’t use that tone on your father do I?” Her mum scolded.
“He is not my husband.”
“Yet.” Michael added with amusement. Since his life is messed up, he decided to have as much fun as he can with the madness happening. He will not let her frustrate him. If he gets tired, he will find a hiding place and come back later.
Rachael was too embarrassed to admit she was hungry, she actually did not know she was until the saw the sight on the dining table. Her stomach growled and everybody laughed. 
“I guess I won’t have to beg you to eat now do I ?” Her father asked.
“Daddy I was just fine in my room.” She argued.
“Well you can go back if you want.” He answered trying not to laugh when she pouted her lips like a child. He would miss her so much but they have to do this and move on.
“I…well I just don’t…Here sit down.” Michael said and pulled out a chair for the stuttering woman.
She looked at him as If she was surprised, well he used to be a gentle man but that seem like decades ago, she seem not to have a memory of their good old days and she does not want to remember. She was going to hold on to this anger.
“Don’t start acting all nice because they are here, what if I don’t want to sit?” She asked with her hand on her waist.
“Is it the pregnancy or you trying to be the child I didn’t raise you to be. You shame me. I have warned you to stop talking to him that way, didn’t I ?” Her mother asked.
“Now sit down and eat, you are obviously hungry and I made more than enough. Can I have peace in my house please, I am tired of all these drama okay? Rachael I am tired, you are not a kid anymore, you are an adult and I will treat you as one. You have a responsibility to this child and I will not tolerate this nonsense anymore. If you think your stable life with us was by chance, go and try that when you get to your husband’s house. I am the home maker here so you go by my rules understand?” Her mum said.
Rachael knew she had pushed it to the limit. Tears shimmered down her eyes as she looked at her mum that was panting as if she ran a marathon. Her father and Michael just stood quietly watching the scene.

“Mummy please we are sorry, if I didn’t give in to the weakness of the moment things would have gone differently.” Michael said when he found his tongue.
“Enough of the guilt trip son, going back to the past has done no one good, we should think of how to move forward.” Her father said.
Rachael wiped her tears with the back of her hand and sniffed as the tears flowed easily.

Her mum felt weak and pulled out a chair to sit beside her. “Baby I am sorry I shouted at you. Everything is happening so fast and you have not really been cooperative. Please my dear can you make this easy for all of us. I know God knows best, we don’t know what tomorrow holds but this is not the end of life. Can you please stop crying and eat your food. I worry about you. Please my dear.”
Her mother wiped her face with her palm like she had done countless times when she was a little girl.
“Mummy I am sorry too, I don’t know why I feel so depressed these days, I know it’s hard but I appreciate all you and dad have done for me, I am sorry I didn’t turn out to make you proud.” She said and crumbled in her mother’s arms.
When the crying spree was over, they settled and ate in silence. After the meal she helped in packing the plates to the kitchen and Michael asked her mum to leave it to them. When the woman was out, Rachael dropped the plate in the sink and leaned on it.
“Are you okay?” He asked but didn’t touch her though he was watching to catch her in case she wants to faint on him.
“You know I have an issue with both of us standing alone in the kitchen, actually alone anywhere. I don’t want to end up pregnant.” She said still not facing him.
“Well you can’t be more pregnant than you are now plus I have no intention of doing anything to you. Once was enough. Can we just wash the dishes and get out. If you are tired just sit down and I will finish it.”
“Seriously? I would gladly take you on that offer but then mum will not be happy about it. I will appreciate that help when I become your…”She stopped in mid-sentence when she realized what she was about to say. Her eyes met his and she could see the amusement in his eyes.
“When you become my wife you meant to say right? Rachael I can’t say we love each other now but there should not be hatred between us. I am trying to keep calm and go along with the plan, please let’s be civil about this thing. I didn’t know you to be this difficult.” He said with a hint of frustration in his voice.
“Can we just clean this place and get out of the kitchen, I am feeling very uncomfortable.” She said picking a dirty dish and scrubbing it.
“Now I know how much you detest me. I…I never mind.” He said. Rachael wanted to say that was not what she meant but it sure sounded like it and it was too late to redeem herself.
They worked in silence and she noticed he took the pain to avoid touching her not even by mistake. She did not know why something sank in the pit of her stomach at the thought of it. She knew she would be the one to suffer most especially with the aches on her back and legs.
“Michael I am sor…no please save it. I understand, I am making arrangement to make the house conducive for you, I will not be in your way. You will have sufficient time to be alone because I won’t bother you. I actually came to ask you to tell me whatever you want to change in the house or whatever you need just let me know. I hope you still have my number?” He asked and started to walk out of the kitchen then he turned.
“You should consider making your hair, you really don’t  look good with that on your head.”
“Since when has my hair been your concern?”
“Since I was your friend if memory serves you well and since you will be my wife soon, I need you to look good if not for yourself, for me. I thought you were stronger than this. You should try and pull yourself together, my mum will be coming in two days and I will not want you giving her the wrong impressions so behave.”
“Michael why does everything have to be about you huh?” She started to rant but he was already gone.
“Rachael, this is not going help issues.” Her mum said entering the kitchen.
“Mum he is just so selfish.” She complained.
“You are just being unreasonable. You know I keep wondering how you loved him so much at a point but now it seems like you can’t stand him not even as a friend. Rachael watch it so you don’t suffer. That guy is a gentle man, don’t push him because if you do, you would suffer it more.”

QUESTION
Is it possible to love so much to the point of hate? Or rather can you love and detest a person at the same time?

LESSON
Unforgiveness is like cancer that eats up the individual till there is nothing but chaff left. Let Go and Let God!

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IMPERFECT ME 12

EPISODE 12

When Rachael fainted, her father was on his feet to her side immediately. There was chaos in the office. Michael who had been eavesdropping entered and he was by her side the next minute, a bottle water was opened quickly and sprinkled on her face when she winced, they put on the fan, though the AC was on  and allowed her some space.

The only woman present Deaconess Deborah knew it was not as bad as the men thought. Rachael’s father was sweating and very confused.
“She is fine, what has she eaten today?” She asked the dad.
“I am not sure she ate well, her mother had been complaining that she stopped eating, all she does is cry. Rachael you had better be fine.” Her father said wiping a tear from his eyes. He could not lose her, he knew how much he suffered before she stayed, he lost other babies through mysterious miscarriages and she was the only one they had.

“Rachael please open your eyes. I am sorry okay, please forgive me, just open your eyes, I know I have been selfish and stupid but now is not the time to die. You will be fine okay. Rachael!” Michael said kneeling beside her and patting her cheek slightly. Her eyes fluttered open and her throat felt glued together, she was trying to make sense of the scene before her.

“Michael!” She managed to say, then as if something hit her, she gathered her energy and pushed him.
“Get away from me, don’t touch me!!!” She said crying.
“Baby are you okay?” Her dad asked.
“Daddy I am sorry.” She cried and he hugged her and they wept together.

Michael was so hurt and embarrassed; He excused himself and walked out of the office. How did a loving friendship become a monstrous one. She did not even trust him to hold her even in the presence of everybody, how will he now survive with her for the rest of his life. She hated him and it was not totally her fault, he was overcome by emotion, Leah frustrated him and there was the issue of her sensual voice coming from his kitchen and yes all that was male in him answered the call even when his heart warned against it.
“God you just have to help me, I am losing my mind.” He said bowing his head in his sitted position.

Rachael’s father came out and saw him sitting at the back of the church looking like a lost man. Despite the hurt he felt, he knew good will come out of this union. King David had done worse than the young man but God had mercy and compensated them with Solomon. He sat beside him and Michael looked up to see who it was.
He was already half way up to greet the elderly man when he stopped him.
“Don’t bother, sit down let me talk to you.”
“Okay sir.” He said and gulped.
“Michael I must say I was hurt when I heard what happened but then the deed has been done. I am sorry Leah left but I wish I had been much forward, I don’t think we all will be in this mess. You remember I once asked you why you were always hanging around my daughter and you claimed she was just a friend. I gave you an opportunity to talk but I guess you missed it. Michael you know how you met my daughter, I have forgiven you but I promise you, if you hurt one hair on her head again, you will not like what I will do to you.”
“But sir…Let me finish.” He interrupted.
“Rachael is a stubborn girl and the scene we just witness confirmed a lot of things to me. My daughter loved you, I am not so sure if she still does, she feels very hurt now and I know it’s not going to be easy but both of you know the basics of what a Christian marriage is, promise me you will take care of her for me. You know I have the capacity to take care of the unborn child but I believe both of you are just hurting, you will eventually find yourselves again.” Her dad said.
“Sir I don’t think Rachael will ever agree. She can’t stand me close to her, how do I cope with that. Sir Rachael had a special place in my heart, I cared a lot about her but I did not think things will get this ugly between us and these past months has been the worse for me, how then do we live together?” He asked confused but her father seems to be annoyed.

“Michael, you put the baby in her, you should take care of them, I give you three weeks to come with your people to see me. I need to take my daughter home to rest. We will talk some more later.” The man said patting his shoulder and walking away.

Michael did not know what to do with himself, a part of him seem to be happy, he used to fantasize about them being a couple but never in his life did he think it will happen this way. Rachael is every man’s dream woman but she was so not the best person to be with now. Leah had totally refused to talk to him, she claimed she has forgiven him. He wondered why things just refused to work, they had cancelled several trips to go see her parent. He spoke to them over the phone severally, he knew the parent wanted her home but Leah could be adamant. He had a feeling she was hiding a lot of things but then Leah turned a new leaf, she became lovely and so caring, just when he thought they were making progress, Rachael came with the talk of being pregnant and everything was now a total mess. Where would a marriage put them now, he hoped her father was not serious but what will they do now that the church council think it is the best thing to do. They all thought this was a shortcut to get one of the best ladies in the church but God knows they are wrong? How will he proof that now?

LESSON
Don’t do today what you will regret tomorrow.
It’s Valentine, spread love not body fluids. God is love!!! Happy Valentine's Day people. I love you all.

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IMPERFECT ME 11

EPISODE 11
Rachael was waiting inside the church two weeks after she told Leah for her fate to be sealed. Telling Leah was not as hard as she imagined, Leah seemed to blame Michael much more than she blamed her, she acted as though she understood her plight, it crossed her mind again that Leah could be hiding something but now that was not her business. The look of shock on her father’s face was what shocked her.
The disappointment and guilt in her mother’s eyes broke her already wrecked spirit. She hated herself and almost wish there was a way this baby will just disappear and everything can go back to normal.
“You should have come out right and tell us you really want Michael, you know we liked him but Rachael you disgraced me, he is engaged for God sake and do you know what you have done, he will not be able to move on in ministry with his mate, that boy has graces on his life and you… Daddy why are you blaming just me, I…”
“Rachael shut up, I am still talking. Do you know how much trust I had in you, you went through school, finished the university and this is what we get? You are the only child we have, and you also rubbed me the pleasure of having a graceful wedding for my only surviving child. You want to be a mother right? I guess you will be a wife too.” He said angrily.
“No!!! daddy please no, I don’t please, I can’t marry him, I hate him for doing this to me, God I just feel like dying.” She said hitting herself on the floor.
“Rachael do you want to kill me huh! You feel like dying right? Does that make everything alright? You are not going to die and neither is the child, your father is really mad at you and so am I but you will cause a lot of damage to your baby and yourself if you keep acting this way.” Her mother said raising her up.
“Oh God! I don’t want to be a mother now, I don’t even want to be a wife too. I just want to be alone. I hate this life, I hate myself for falling cheaply, I hate him, I ha…Shut up my friend.” Her mother cut her shut.
“How dare you spit such foul words in my house, you think you are the only one in trouble, I don’t know why this is happening but I belief God will see us through. I have helped a lot of girls with teenage pregnancies and I have taught them over the years that no child is a mistake, everything happens for a reason. It’s just so sad that my trusted child…Oh Rachael this is bad.” Her mother broke down in tears and that broke her heart.
She rushed herself to the room before the nausea over took her, she was lucky she did not vomit as much as other women vomited if not she would have been discovered. She had noticed she was hungrier and ate quite often, she did not know she was eating for two until the dizziness set in and the cold. She started to suspect, when the symptoms kept increasing she found a way to get a pregnancy kit and now her life was a total mess. Michael was as confused as she was. Leah is threatening to call off the engagement but that was not the worst part for him, the fact that everybody may think he had been faking being who he is, the guy that loves God and is touching lives, one of the best graduating student in the ministry school, he had been looking forward to their graduation and  ordination but of course it will not include him as part of the punishment.
Michael had begged but then those were part of the disciplinary actions, he will have to face it and so did she. She had been suspended from the choir and every other unit as expected. Though it was not announced publicly, news spread like wild fire. She did not want to go to church but her father insisted on it saying she will have to face the shame that she caused the family.
Her father was also in the pastor’s office with some members of the marriage committee, Michael was in there too but she was asked to wait outside for them.
Michael stepped out of the office rubbing his eyes out of fatigue. She got up then and walked towards him.
“I hope you are happy now?” He asked with disgust.
“And what is that supposed to mean?” She barked back.
“Well pastor needs you in the office now.” He said and walked back without so much as a second look at her. She was feeling really tired and her waist was aching slightly from sitting for so long. She followed gently and her heart was pounding loudly in her ears, she did not want to see her father’s face but then, she can’t avoid his piercing look. Her loving, caring and very understanding dad has become the strict and autocratic dad. He had always been the principled dad who wanted things in order but now, it has crossed the border to being strict not just principled.
“Good afternoon sirs and ma.” She curtsied and they offered her a seat which she did not want to take but she knew she could not risk standing for so long, not with the tension building on her back.
“Rachael, I want to believe you also have asked the Lord to forgive you but you know we get to suffer consequences for our actions. It was wrong to hide this sin, he that covers his sin shall not prosper but I know the Lord will have mercy on you both.” Pastor said and silent amen was said by all.
“Well, Sister Leah has come to the church to call off the engagement, there won’t be a wedding between Leah and Michael, the good thing is that it has not been announced officially but there will be a wedding between you and Michael.” He said and it hit her like hammer.
“What! No!!! please No!!! daddy say something please. I can’t marry him. I just can’t. I beg you please don’t do this to me, I will be miserable.” She held her father’s arm but then she got a cold answer.
“Rachael control yourself, I won’t have my child give birth to a bastard, I don’t know why I can’t stop feeling like both of you planned this, you should have asked me a long time ago for my daughter’s hand Michael and I would have gladly agreed, you did not have to do it in such a shameful manner.” The man said sadly and Michael could say nothing, he was mad at himself and mad at her, if she had agreed since they will not be in this mess and yes if he had gone to meet her father, things will be different.
 
“Michael’s parent are aware of the development and they have agreed too. They are also fine Christian people and it was a blow on them but then both of you are matured enough, since you could not wait, let’s make it official.” The pastor said and Rachael’s head hit the table as she passed out.

QUESTION
Is it compulsory in this scenario to ask  lady to marry the man that got her pregnant especially if they are believers. In your opinion, what would have been the right thing to do?
Do you think anything good can come out of such union?
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