HE IS NOT MAN BUT BECAME THE MAN THAT MAN WAS INTENDED TO BE!!!

"God! Thank God you are not man! " I exclaimed from the core of my being, I do not intend to be grammatically correct in making that statement so take it as raw as it came.

What is man, a double minded being who is easily tossed and turned by the circumstances surrounding him.

Man who says one thing today and because he is just human, he can not fulfil the words he has spoken.

Man even in His strength is weak and would make excuses to justify himself. Man who professes love today and because of a hurt is no where to be found anymore.

Man O Man!  I do not shout man as male alone but I am talking about the male and female creature He called Adam. For we have in our nature a track record of frailty that we received after the fall.

We who were made in God's image fell with our ancestors and  they multiplied based on their own genetics.

If God were man and man were God,  Haa!  We for don die finish,  for the wrath of man is to be feared,  the anger that burns that makes a day's foolishness wipe away years of good. The evil that makes faults easy to notice than strength is to be praised.

But it was for Man that God became Man... The word became flesh and dwelt amongst us. Showing us time and time again the blue print of the making of man.

He showed love to the messed up fellas, men and women who by all self righteous standard are not worthy to stand before people.

He forgave much and loved more, that love killed him. What man is He that says "Father forgive them..." when they were right in the act of killing him.

What kind of love is that, the love that forgives and does not bring record of evil. Haa! What kind of compassion is that,  making excuses for the sinner and saying,  go and sin no more.

What madness is this called love that made him willingly surrender to be killed and a criminal not minding his reputation and what people say about him.

It is this Jesus that died, he became Sin and was rejected by His father, he nailed it to the cross and declared IT IS FINISHED!!!

the same spirit that rose Jesus from the dead lives in you. The same ability to love selflessly works in you,  the grace to forgive has not yet dried up. You have been forgiven much and given a new life, make that life count.

God is not like the man we grew up knowing, He became the type of Man he intended for Man to be from the beginning. Selah!

We remember the death of Jesus today, He died and so did you, He lives and you live also. Glory.
Happy Good Friday from Radiant Pheobe

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LIFE AFTER MY SELF IS GONE.

Humbly I lie low and in my mind I wonder why things are slow
I am a seed that was sown but till now I am unknown.

I turn and there seem to be no world other than the dirt that surrounds me

I was afraid of losing myself to it and becoming one with it but the more I fought to be me,  the harder it seems

Why am I like this? My skin has fallen out exposing my interior to the decay that lies around me

The harder I fought the degradation, the more I shrunk looking different from the me I knew.

"Oh I am ruined! Why must I die now?" I cried as loud as I could with the agony that engulfed my 'self'

Giving up on self seemed like I was giving up on life,  the life I had fought so hard to keep.

I held on tight to the life I thought was a life little did I know it was the grip of death

I was made a spectacle in the world of the ants who moved freely around me celebrating my death and waiting to feast on my remains.

Just if I can become a beauty again, a ravishing one that all eyes beheld with awe before I was reduced to nothing by my owner.

Oh,  I can't believe he wants me dead, I can't believe he hated me so much, I still can't recover from the shock of becoming a past tense with RIP smelling over me when I had nothing like peace within me.

Oh! I was dying slowly and finally when my strength failed,  when I lost the will to live, when in my mind,  I thought for the last time how much my owner hated me to make me go through so much pain.

Just when my haters rubbed their palms together with their wicked grin, just then I felt the coolness of life sipping from the top through my remains.

Why now, I thought, why now?  I felt it was too late to save me,  I had no beauty anymore, I looked nothing like my self,  I had been humiliated and rubbished by ants who can't be in my class, but are acting like they own the rest of me.

I became the left over but daily, I felt the coolness of water, the life I needed sipping through, my self had died but I am not dead, even in my death,  I wanted to live.

Mother had told me she had to die for her to have me,  I never knew I would go through the same.  I welcomed the coolness of the water, though they made fun of me, amidst the rubbish of my old self came something beautiful.

It was not me, but it became me,  I started to grow into a new form,  I was not comfortable hiding under,  there was a force propelling me up, it was cool down here but I needed to ascend to the source of life itself.

I didn't have to push much,  as I grew, there was an opening to accommodate my growth and that beautiful morning, I woke up to the sun smiling brightly at me.

Wow!  I am a new creature. Something burst forth inside me,  I knew I had been restored but now I am a mother.

I smiled at the seeds I bore and knew that my owner didn't hate me, he wanted me to multiply.

Except a seed falls to the ground and dies, it abides alone.  You may have to go through hell and back but what didn't kill you will make you stronger. Haters will mock and discourage you but when your time to shine comes, nothing will stop you.

Rise above your difficulties, triumph in trials and give God the glory for He is that owner that has good plans for your life.

Go through your tests and pass it, you may be hidden and feel your dreams are dead and gone but there is light at the end of the tunnel, learn all your can, pray, praise, believe and breakthrough.

If you love your life, you Will lose it, if you lose it for Christ sake, you would gain it.

I know it's tough but life can always get better, don't give up, Rise and Shine!

Copyright © Radiant Pheobe 2017.

IMPERFECT ME 22

Episode 22

Rachael had woken up as early as four to start her house chores on Monday morning to get everything ready so she can be set to leave immediately her husband leaves but the guy seem to be stalling.
“I noticed you woke up quite early today, I know you wake up early but you were up earlier than usual, is there something I should know that you are not…”
“No!!! There is nothing, I just could not sleep so I … I decided to come and you know., em start my work on time.” She stuttered.
“I know when you are lying, I wonder why you still bother to lie to me but whatever it is just don’t get yourself so stressed up, you can ask for my help just in case you need it.”
“Sure I will. Thanks.” She said and excused herself.”
Michael felt something was off about her, he noticed she had done her hair and the fact that she was looking extremely beautiful bothered him, since she was ignoring him, who else would she have taken extra effort to look good for. He did not have valid evidences so he could not accuse her falsely at least not now that he is trying to get on her good page.
He remembered the shock on her face when he hugged her yesterday; he was in a very happy mood. He had been promoted and needed his wife to congratulate him. He did not want a cold response so he took his congratulatory hug without her permission. He had celebrated with his colleagues at the office and well she made him a sumptuous dinner so everything felt great in his mind but he knew she was up to something and it was bugging him that she would not open up to him about it. He will surely find out what that is, sooner not later.
Rachael waited for him to go, she rushed into her room and changed. She applied a light make-up and looked herself over in the mirror, she smiled at the beautiful woman she was seeing though her husband seem not to have noticed her new look and she did not care. Well she did care, he should have asked or said something at least. She thought angrily.
She waved a taxi down and quickly got in, she was checking her wristwatch and finally they got there. She paid the man and rushed into the building, she was running late but gratefully it was not her turn she met few other people and she discovered that the interview had been going on since last week, they were the last set of people called and so the chances of getting the job was so slim except you have someone on the inside as it is with all Nigerian parastatals.
She dialed her mother’s number to inform her about it and for her to pray for her.
“Is your husband aware of this thing you are up to?” Her mum asked and she was speechless.
“Mummy please let’s talk about that later, I can’t talk here please. He will be fine with it trust me.”
“Rachael!!!”
“Mummy, I’ve got to go now please. Love ya.” She said and ended the call.
“Rachael Michael Tade, are you  here?” the secretary asked.
“Yes-Yes please, I am here.” She said and quickly gathered herself as she walked with her head held high though her heart was pounding loudly in her ears.
She saluted the five man committee of interviewer and sat down when one of them asked her to sit.
“So you think you are the best person for this job huh?”
“Absolutely sir.” She replied confidently though she hid her doubts well.
She watched the chairman whisper something into the other people’s ear, she had come prepared for them, she had talked for about ten minutes answering their questions and she saw the approval in their eyes she only prays that that will be good enough to get her the appointment letter.
“So Madam, how much would you like to be paid?” the chairman asked.
“I beg your pardon sir.” She said confused.
“Well congratulations, you just got the job.” One of them said stretching his hand for a handshake.
“What! Really, I…I, I thought you….how can I be….sir….I guess we just made a stammerer out of her.” One of them said to lighten up the mood and the others laughed.
“Training commences next week Monday, you can meet the secretary to give you some forms to fill which should be submitted latest on Friday.”
“Wow! Thank you so much, I can’t believe this is happening. Thank you sirs.”
“I hope you will not make us regret our decision?”
“What! No!!! Sir I won’t. Thank you very much.” She said dabbing the tears with the tip of her fingers.
“You can go now. Please ask the next person to be called in.” She bowed and took her leave happily. She could not believe it was happening, how in the world.
“Mummy I got the job, am coming home now.” She said shouting in the taxi and the cab man congratulated her.
After the congratulations has been said, she ate to her fill and decided to relax and fantasize about her new job.
“So have you told your husband about it?” Her mum asked.
“Mummy please let’s not spoil the mood.”
“Rachael I really don’t understand you anymore, what has he done to you this time huh?” Her mum asked enraged.
“Mummy he has done nothing wrong but I was afraid he won’t want me getting a job now but I can’t just stay home doing nothing, I am bored, I need to get a life, I need to feel useful and not even him can stop me.”
“Pride goes before a fall Rachael, I did not raise you this way, whatever demon that has possessed my daughter should leave her be please. Rachael you need to go home and start building your home. I will not be a party to this arrogance of yours.”
“Mummy I hear you, I need to start going now it’s getting late and I don’t want him getting worried for nothing.”
“What has gotten into you? Rachael I think your father has to talk some sense into you.”
“Mummy I am okay, please don’t disturb him, I am no more a kid, I am a married woman for God sake.”
“Oh really? You are not acting like one, you act like you own yourself, how can a woman with a husband go looking for a job and even went all the way to get the job without first consulting with her husband. I thought you said you both are doing well, now I see that you are the problem not him.” Her mum said angrily.
“But mummy, I am not to be blamed, remember I was forced into this marriage.”  
“Will you shut your mouth there?” Her father’s baritone voice scolded from behind and she shook in fear.
“Daddy? I did not know you were in.” She said meekly.
“Rachael I am really disappointed in you. How dare you say such a thing to your mother’s face huh? Whose fault was it that you got pregnant huh? I believed you had chosen your groom since both of you were in a hurry, I hastened it up and now it turns out that you both are still foolish, how is that my fault. Congratulations on your new job, now get out of my house and go and build your home. I don’t want to see you here next time without you coming with your husband walking arm in arm. Have I made myself clear?”
“…Yes daddy.” She said sniffing and wiping the tears off her face.
“Good, now make sure you greet your husband for me. You better work on yourself, I believe your mother and I trained you better than this.” He said sitting down.
“It’s getting late, you should start going.” Her mum said in a low tone.
“Yes ma, good night.” She packed her stuff slowly and walked to the door, all the excitement was gone. Tears were all she had left. She knew they were right but she did not know how or when to start undoing what she has done. She does it perfectly in her mind but in reality, it’s not so easy.
She was so lost in thought that the cab man almost past their house but she noticed just in time. She was way too late and she was not even in the mood to apologize, she was just angry, at herself, at him, at everything happening. Her life should be better than this but then it seems to be getting worse. Their son was dead, she was still hurting from that. She felt cheated, she felt trapped, she wanted out but she was stuck for life. Divorce is not even an option, her father had also rejected her, well unless she reconciles with her husband and there is no way they can pretend to her father.
She opened the door and saw Michael looking disturbed and she knew why but instead of apologizing, she just greeted and walked past.
“Good evening? Is that all you have to say to me?”
“Michael please I don’t have energy to argue this night.” She said turning to continue her journey.
“Rachael stop there.” He said in a firm voice that brought her to an abrupt stop.
“Where are you coming from? I had been home for almost two hours and did not see you, I had to call your dad and he told me you were at home, Rachael I was worried sick, I searched everywhere for you and then you switched off your phone.”
“The battery is dead.” She said in defense.
“Rachael, I don’t ever want to feel like this again, ever. I am not stopping you from going anywhere but you are my wife and you should respect my feelings and be able to tell me where you want to go and let me know if you will be home early or not.”
“Why are you getting so worked up, I need to rest please.”
“Rachael are you okay? I am talking to you and you are walking out on me. What has gotten into you and hey! Why are you dressed so corporately when you don’t even go to any office, is there something you are not telling me?”
“Well yes, there is a lot I have not told you, I got a job today, I have been sending out my CV’s and now after an interview, I was favored. Michael I can’t continue to sit in your house and getting fat, I am bored, I feel useless staying home all day, I thought I would have a baby to keep me busy like you predicted…She eyed him with tears in her eyes, it turns out that I will wait for a lifetime for that to happen.”
“We could make another baby now don’t you think? I believe I am very fertile.” He replied angrily.
“You will not lay a finger on me. Michael I have a job to go tomorrow, don’t think about stopping me because I won’t be stopped. Good night.” She said and ran off to her room leaving him dumb folded.
Lesson
It is better to be optimistic than to live a paranoid life.
Happy new month dear readers. As a special bonus for those who have been following, this seems to be the longest episode that has been published. It seems like the drama will not end or like the marriage will not work, Trust me, you don’t know the half of it. After this part is where the fun begins. Book is available for the first set buyers, like I said before, this is just for those interested in knowing what happens next. It might not be this cheap when the main production is done. Contact me now for your copy on 07032725371.
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IMPERFECT ME 21

Dear Readers,
I have been amazed at the response so far to get the book.  It is really encouraging to see that I have people who are willing to support this new flight. Just for a notice, tomorrow will be the last day I will be posting new episodes here, like I said there is more from where it came from. Don't delay in getting your own copy. Contact 07032725371 for more information.
As a plan to take us forward, the next edition of the book will contain testimonies of the first readers, it will be nice to have your words and names in this book as the sale will go far and wide. Let's keep doing this. Radiant Pheobe has come to stay. I am here to serve you all.
God bless you all. Have a beautiful week.

Now enjoy your story...
Rachael had settled into a normal routine, weeks had turned to months since she left the hospital and it’s been hard to keep up with the I don’t care attitude she was exhibiting, she was quickly losing weight and she was happy about that, she had started to feel restless about staying at home, she had put calls through to offices that she submitted her C.V to check if she still stood the chance. She would feel better if she had somewhere to go.
She used to think music will be her life career but she was yet to find or recover the passion she lost. She was back to the choir but it made no difference, she had kept refusing to take any solo, she did not feel comfortable singing in front of the church who knows the history of her pregnancy, now that she lost it, maybe, just maybe she will muster the courage to hold the microphone and sing sweet melodies to the Lord. She had been working on finding her fellowship with God, she had drifted too far and she knew she needed him now more than she needed to breath.
Michael was making her feel guilty, he’s been too caring, coming home on time, buying her gifts, making attempts to keep her company which she politely turns down though she was dying to. She was enjoying the attention and she did not want it to stop, she just hope he can be patient, she realized she did not hate him as much as she thought, actually, she did not hate him at all. She was just bitter and wanted him to feel what she felt. She knew he was hurt but he had not reacted back so she was beginning to believe he was serious about what he said. The I love you and I am going to proof it part.
It was another Friday, she had gone to the market and shopped for the weekend. She had been busy cooking and cleaning up when she got a text message.  She wiped her hand with the napkin and read the message. She could not believe her eyes.
“What! Oh Lord please let it be true.” She said excitedly and she dialed the number to confirm if it was for real or not and it appeared she will be appearing before the panel for a job interview on Monday. She squealed in delight. Her mind was racing with excitement, she made a mental note of the cloth that will be suitable, she remembered that her hair needed to be done and thank God she does not need to travel out of town. She has decided to keep it to herself until she gets the job, She knew her husband has got connections but she needed the satisfaction of getting the job by herself so she gets to call the shots and she had a feeling he might not be comfortable with her starting work like that without his involvement but she will not bother about that for now.
“Is anybody home?” Rachael heard her husband’s voice and pretended to be busy, she dipped her hand inside water and picked the napkin just to give him an impression that she was busy. Actually she was busy she only took a short break. She had put the phone aside immediately she heard the door open.
“You are welcome.” She said with a faint smile.
“Thank you my dear, how was your day?” He asked like he always does lately.
“Fine.” She said flatly though she fought the urge to share the good news with him, if they were still friends, he would have been the first person to hear about the job interview. But well they were not those people anymore. Times have changed.
“Are you not going to give your husband a welcome hug after a long day at work?”
“What?” She asked shocked at him as he walked towards her as if it was a usual thing to do to hug him.
“I think we both deserve a hug.” He said spreading his arms around her before she recovered from the shock.
Yes she needed a hug, actually much more than a hug. She was still stiff from the shock of it but when he refused to let go of her and when she could not gather the courage to push him away, she relaxed. A pressed a soft kiss on her head and whispered into her ears.
“Thank You Baby.” Then he released her, gave her a bright smile and picked his abandoned bag and suit.
Rachael felt her knees go weak. What was that for? Was that one of his ways of
melting her resolve?  She thought, she could still feel his firm grip, how come she
missed something as easy as hugging. She almost ran after him but she will be
playing into his trap.
She marched back into the kitchen to get his food ready. How come he is so cool about himself lately, he is even happier, always smiling while she was trying to look serious and stay mad at him. He was making it really difficult for her to go by her initial plan.

Lesson
Don't try to act to strong when in front of you is the solution to the real problem, sometimes show your pain so you can gain at last.

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IMPERFECT ME 20

Episode 20

Hello readers, we have come to the climax of this story and I believe every episode holds an experience. I have had several offers from people who wants the whole book, well it is almost ready for sale, the series will soon be interrupted, I mean stopped so that those who would be buying would have an upper hand, in that regard the other episodes will not be readily available. The first set of buyers will buy at a discounted price, it is cheaper that you can imagine but don't underestimate the value we are giving.
If you are interested in getting the whole book, please contact me on 07032725371 for more details. Thank you very much for the patronage,  I am always at your service. God bless you.

Now enjoy today's episode....

Rachael woke up feeling strange, her hand went straight to her stomach and she knew something was not right.
“No!!! Jesus! Please, no, where is my baby?” She cried and she felt a hand try to hold her down, she pushed it away but as she tried to sit up, the pains weakened her and her muscles went rigid.
Tears flowed freely as she tried to recall how she had gotten to the hospital. She looked through her tears and saw her mum looking so rough as she kept calling the doctor and nurses who quickly ran into the room.
“Where is my baby, I want my baby. Mummy please bring my baby let me see.”
“Rachael, please just calm down okay, I am just so happy you are finally awake, you have been sleeping for two days now, Rachael baby, are you okay now?” Her mum asked her trying to calm her down.
“Mummy tell me my baby is fine” She said and her lips quivered and well the look on her mother’s face confirmed her fears.
“No!!! Mummy Michael won’t want me again, my baby can’t die please, that was all he cared about, has he left me? Why is he not here?” She asked panicky.
“Rachael please calm down for God’s sake. Your husband has not left you, he was with you all night, I had to beg him to get some rest, he left a while ago before you woke up.” Her mother explained hoping that will calm her down.
“No, I don’t believe you, no!!!” She remembered flashes of how he dragged her out of his room like a thief, she shut her eyes tight as anger brewed on her inside. She knew their marriage had nothing to hold on to, she did not know how their life will turn out but she did know for sure that Michael will not be given the pleasure to treat her like trash, the worse that could happen was for her to leave his house and remain single, she did not need a man’s compassion, from experience, men don’t really have it. Her father turned his back on her and forced her to marry, the husband too had his own share of frustrating her but she will not let another man ride her anymore. She will pick up her life and be happy.
Michael eased the door open, he was hoping she had woken up finally and yes, she was awake. He released his breath and walked towards her but she turned her face away.
“Rachael, how are you feeling now? Am so glad you are awake.” He said but she did not acknowledge him.
“Rachael your husband is talking to you?  Can’t you reply him?” Her mother scolded.
She turned her head slightly and turned back to face the wall.
He tried to hold her but she removed her hand so fast that you will think she was burnt by fire. Michael knew he deserved it but the pain of rejection is something he can’t bear.
“Rachael please forgive me, I know I have not been the best husband to you but please believe me, I am ready to start over and…Why Michael! Do you think I am that pathetic, why now, why are you not asking about your baby now since that was all that mattered to you hmm!” Her lips quivered as she talked.
“I am sorry, you matter to me, you really do.” He said desperately.
“You know what, I don’t even want to see your face now, I…I, Michael I hate you, just go away please.” She cried.
“Rachael stop it this minute, how can you say that huh!” Her mum asked feeling shocked and embarrassed.
“Mummy it’s okay, I deserve worse. I know I have hurt her deeply but Rachael I love you and I will proof it to you, just get well please.” He said sniffing and brushing the tears away from his eyes.
Rachael had to force herself to remain still when he said he loves her, she had waited so long to hear him say it but now that it’s said, she did not believe him.
“Rachael you should apologize to your husband this minute.” Her mother commanded.
“No mum, he is just pretending because you are here, I don’t believe him…he reached out to touch her. Don’t touch me.” She said with gritted teeth.
Michael felt so useless sitting down there and having her behave that way. He was grieved but wondered how he would survive if she does not change. How do I show her love and care if she does not even believe it’s for real huh?
“Mummy please excuse me.” He said and stepped out of her room.
“Rachael I hope you know what you are doing, no matter what he has done, I believe you were not always nice to him too, you don’t need this now, you both need to put the past behind and focus on your glorious future.” Her mum advised.
“Mummy please help me with the water on the table I am thirsty.”
“Jesus! What do I do to this girl, you mean that’s all you have to say, I should give you water you are thirsty. I wonder why we are still here, you seem to be feeling very strong, at least strong enough to talk to your husband anyhow. And to dismiss what I said like it does not matter.” Her mum answered angrily while getting the water for her to drink.
“Mummy I..I.” She tried to talk but tears blurred her vision and she swallowed hard and sniffed, her head was throbbing from crying too much.
“I am sorry baby, just rest okay, let’s not talk about it anymore okay?” Her mum said trying to appease her but she knew that it will take the grace of God to save her daughter's marriage

Lesson
Never let anger get the better part of you.

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IMPERFECT ME 19

Episode 19
“Rachael open your eyes, I am sorry… Rachael please I love you, don’t do this to me. Rachael!!!” He shook her but there was no response. He carried her and rushed to his car calling his neighbor’s attention, the blood kept flowing all the way to the hospital, she was already looking pale. He cried begging her to come back to him, her breathing became irregular. He prayed, begged and shouted for his neighbor to drive faster.
“Oh Lord please save my wife and baby, please Lord.” He cried and finally they were at the hospital, she was immediately rushed to the theatre while he put a call through to her parent and his pastor.
While he stood waiting for the doctor to come out, he paced looking at the entrance to see if anyone was coming out.
“Michael what have you done to my daughter?” Her mum said and grasped his blood stained shirt.
“I swear to you if I lose my daughter you will see the other side of me, you will know that I…Shut up woman, I am not going to lose my daughter.” Her husband said firmly and pulled her away from Michael.
“I am sorry, I am so sorry. I love my wife, God please I beg you save her and my baby.” He cried as fresh tears rushed down his cheeks. He was not going to pretend to be strong because he really was not feeling strong, he feels like his life is crumbling. He did not know what he would do if she does not make it. He did not know where he will start. He regrets not reciprocating her love early enough even when he knew he loved her.
He sat on the floor and buried his head in his palm as he cried when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He raised his head and saw that it was his father in-law. He wiped his tears with the back of his hand and stood up.
“It’s okay son.” He said.
“No sir, it’s not okay, I was a reckless husband, I should have paid more attention to her, I should have cared for her but I was too foolish and stubborn.” He cried.
“Hmm! I can’t say I am happy with all that’s been happening but I know, God has better plans for my child, I believed you will be good for her despite the circumstances surrounding your marriage, I hope I was not wrong, I hope I will not regret giving her to you. I just hope so.” He said sitting down slowly.
“Lord please help me.” He said too ashamed to face the elderly man.
“Where is the husband to…I am here doctor, how is my wife and baby?” He asked jumping to his feet.
“Yes doctor, how is my daughter, where is she? When can I see her?” Her mum asked.
“Doctor talk to me, I am her father, hope my daughter is okay? And her baby?” Her dad added.
“Can we just calm down first? Well the evacuation was successful and she just needs to rest, if she had not been brought here on time, we will not be saying this story now, the foetus had started to rot, I believe she has been having pains, well just let’s thank God she is alive and well.” He explained and her parent exchanged a knowing look.
“Evacuation?” They said in unison.
“Jesus! I am finished, I lost my baby.” He cried bitterly with a lot running through his mind, he did not know what the days ahead holds, that baby was the reason they married, the reason they tolerated each other, that baby was their life line, their marriage held no substance without the baby. He used to emphasize so much on the baby that his wife felt humiliated thinking he does not care about her but she was wrong, he did care, more than she will imagine and it’s time to proof it.
“ Mr. Michael, your wife seems to be going through a lot of emotional issues, you need to show her all the love and care you can give, she needs it now more than before, women that goes through this if not properly taken care of develop some psychological issues. Please go home and rest because she is still too weak to see anybody.” He said and excused himself.
Michael staggered and held the wall for support. “But Lord I said I was sorry now. Why do I have to lose my child now huh! Why?” He cried hitting the wall.
“Thank you Lord, my daughter is alive. Michael you should thank your God that my daughter is alive, it’s so sad that the baby did not make it, of course if I were him, I would not want to come into a troublesome family. Michael I would not mind taking my daughter home and take care of her if you know you cannot do so.” Her mum said angrily.
“Mummy, please, no, don’t take my wife from me, I can’t bear to part with her. I know I have not been the best husband to her but I promise to change for good, I will do all I can to make her comfortable, don’t just take her from me please, she’s my wife and I love her even though I had strange ways of showing it but please don’t….Nobody is taking her from you, so stop crying and be a man.” His father in-law said.   
Lesson
You may not know the value of what you have till you lose it.
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IMPERFECT ME 18

Michael was excited about coming home, for the first time since he married his wife, they really sat down and had a very civil conversation, he missed little things like that, though she was feeling some pains, she got over it and she even laughed at his joke, he felt so light hearted and regretted ever agreeing to having her stay in a separate room, he knew she should not be left alone but ego would not let him ask her to come sleep over in his room.

He was afraid of being rejected by her, he knew he will not be able to handle it now. Monday morning was great, she had woken up early to prepare him breakfast which he was grateful for. She even hugged him good bye and yes! That was a bonus that kept his insides churning in anticipation to go home.

Rachael was humming a sweet melody, she could see a great future for her family even though it’s still a slight hope, she was going to turn the spark into a fire that will not be put out.
She was walking past when her mind was drawn to his room, she remembered the struggle she saw in his eyes yesterday, though she put on a plain face, she was hoping he would ask her to come in to his room, her room that was supposed to be their room. She noticed the door was slightly opened and though she remembered his warning not to enter his room for no reason, she too has obeyed like a fool but she was curious to see where he laid, if he had time to clean up, well he goes in with the sweeping brush, and men are not always organized.
She opened the door slowly and what she saw amazed her.

Hmm! Some things don’t change huh! He is still the neat freak he used to be as a bachelor. She thought with a smile.
She scanned the room and her eyes fell on a picture, her picture by his bed frame. She remembered that picture, she remembered him begging her for the picture but she had refused then she noticed it was missing but she did not know he took it. Well he always gets what he wants eventually, only that he got much more than he bargained for with their marriage.

She eased her weight into the bed and it was hard as rock. She used to like soft beds before but now she loved hard beds due to the constant back aches and the aches everywhere.

She smiled but then she felt that pain hit her in her lower abdomen, She decided to rest a bit and get herself. She sniffed his pillow and imagined him being with her like a supportive husband should be but the next thing she knew, she was being barked at.

Michael came home eagerly to see his wife but what he met set the alarm in his head ringing.
“Jesus Christ, Rachael has killed me.” He said barking her name as he ran into the smoke filled kitchen, he went to turn off the gas and the pot had burnt along with whatever she must have been cooking.

He dropped his jacket and bag, opened all the windows.
“I knew all that act of being caring was fake, she fooled me. Rachael!!!” he called out again, went to her room and did not find her, his heart skipped a bit as he imagined the worst. He decided to go change into something comfortable when he saw his wife sleeping soundly in a room filled with smoke.
He was so angry at her, he wondered how many times she had entered his room even when he asked her not to.

“Rachael!!! Wake up.” He tapped her hard and she snapped, sat up looking confused and started to cough. He pulled her out of the bed and was dragging her out of the room.
“Michael!!! Stop dragging me please.” She begged as she felt strength leaving her legs but he was busy ranting about how he knew she was pretending about wanting their marriage to work and how she wants to burn down his house and leave him to suffer.
She pulled him to a standstill when she felt a pump in her pant.
“No!!! Jesus please, no!!!” Michael was forced to stop and turn to look at her and what he saw scared him to his toes.
“JESUS CHRIST! What is this?” He screamed as he beheld blood dripping down her laps, soaking her up.
“Oh no!!!” She said and went limp but he was fast, he caught her before she hit the ground.

LESSON
Don't be in a haste to jump into conclusion, you may cause a problem too much for you to solve.

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